Did you ever wonder, how at times our minds and hearts are not at peace, its scattered all around the place?
I mean even if it’s about doing something, like for example: spending time with family, studying, going out and worshipping Allah, we don’t have or get it enough time with it even if it’s for hours. Ever wonder why we feel this why, why aren’t we complete.
Well as much as I’ve researching on this, I believe it’s all got to do with Tawheed- oneness with Allah.
I mean look around, when a man is married, he is asked to spend time with his son, so he is not just speaking to him but Whatsapping, watching tv and playing ps4 at the same time!. Then tell me where is the focus ? It’s not there, if u look into our religion and other religions even there they say a no no to multitasking.
Why? Let me try giving an example:
When a person would come to Prophet Muhammad (pbuh) he would smile at him and focus just at him not 15 people at once and the was one huge reason why a person would feel special around his (swa) ‘s presence, But don’t we do the opposite? Like if we out with a friend or family member instead of speaking to them we are pretty much busy on our mobile phones. Why? Why not only pay attention to them?
Another example is: We are different around different things, let’s say in front of a non-Muslim we a bit different, at times we try to be similar to them, inside a masjid we are a bit different, when it comes to praying in public we might feel shy or embassies, and go pray in some corner why? – Well I believe we are not in peace with ourselves.
And it’s a saying of Imam Ali that ‘’ One who knows himself knows Allah.’’ And so the real question arises, do we really know our selves to know Allah? Therefore,We all know how it’s an obligation to pray 5 times a day, let’s say some pray magrib for 2 and a half minutes, some might take more time. Well whatever it maybe one should make sure it’s worth it, you give your 100 percent to it. They say not the quantity which matters but the quality. Some might pray extra rakes in some prayers but later get sleepy, then what’s the point of it? Where are you lost? Isn’t it supposed to be focusing on your prayers?
Moreover, we decide our days into hours, say, 1 hour for family, 4 for studies, 2 for friends 1 for Allah and you think we are doing it all wrong, because even after so much time spent it’s still not enough, perhaps it depends on us to sit and think a day before how to spend every part of our day with some quality time with whatever we do, family, friends, studies do it but don’t look at the quality of it instead of the quantity. Let me give you a story to make you understand what I mean better. – Years ago a scholar would be very busy into worshipping Allah and learning about his deen that he would get just half an hour with his family. And if you asked the family was it worth it ? They would say yes it was more than enough, and that’s an example of Tawheed. Focusing at one thing.
Now let’s get back to the main topic: Us. How do we change feeling this way, well as much as I read, let’s Imagine Malik Al- Mout ( The death Angle) is going to come at you any time, maybe now, maybe later, maybe at night, who knows? But he will come, won’t he? There is no stopping to that. And he is going to come and snatch your life away. And what will you be left with then?
Well let me explain this more, did you wonder how some lives get taken easily? Malik Al maut comes, snatches it away and done your gone. It’s over. And there are other, whose soul doesn’t leave the body easily, who get so sick and they are supposed to die but are suffering, whose face turns pail, the life needs to leave they want it to leave but it doesn’t ? And one has to recite Surah Yaseen and ayatul qursi over them again and again with other additional Surah. And that’s when it leave the body finally. Ever wondered why ? Well to make you understand this further there is an amazing explanation by Imam Jafer Sadiq he says: imagine you were to wash clothes, you take it to the laundry, well let’s look back in those days, how would they wash?
They would take it to the river and wash it one by one, .okay now imagine you keep some clothes on the grass and one on the bush, and tsunamis or a tornado is coming ? What would a logical person do? Run for it right? Grab all her clothes and run, Okay now the ones she grabs from the floor she grabs them quickly and the one in the bush it gets stuck and you have to pull it off because you have no time and it rips off a little or sometimes more. Well that’s how the believers are, the clothes on the grass is taken away easily is how a believer with no attachment to this world is, their soul is taken away easily. And the one who is in the bush, which rips of and you have to pull harder is how people who are attached to the world are. And it’s not easy to take away their soul because they are attached to this world
Moreover you know how at times we don’t pray, it’s considered shirk. Why ? Because we are making our nufs our God and not Allah. We are making our desires take over us, when Allah can only be hold over us.And there here I come to the point not to miss our prayers. Therefore we all know know if you make the tauba of seeking forgiveness with the niyah if not committing that sin again he, Allah (swt)will for sure forgive you. It’s doesn’t matter if some say ‘ oh you are so sinful, oh what’s the point of praying, this that, bla bla’ Don’t listen to them!. Who is greater them or Allah?
However, later there comes the question ‘’How do we know that Allah forgive us?’’ – Well for that that Prophet Muhammad (pbuh) was asked the same he said ‘’ If you find Happiness in your prayer, you find contentment in your prayers, means Allah is happy with you and he is lifting up your sprite towards him. However, if you find yourself distracted, doing Qada then it’s like he is removing his mercy slowly over you’’ And this bit got me so sad because it happens with me I’m sure with all of us. I’m a victim of it. But SubhanAllah look around how much this can make us feel so uncomfortable that we are ready to take any step to find that peace, to get closer to Allah again. Or else right now some don’t even bother. Just praying for the sake of praying is enough.
So again I jump back to the topic of death, I asked above what will be left with when our souls are taken away? Well here is the answer.
Let’s say I’m married in have kids and an awesome husband, and one day I die, my property gets decided within my kids, and husband marries someone else, I’m not there, he is allowed to do so because it’s his life and I’m dead, I’m gone and there is no possible away I can stop. Nor can I come back from the dead and ask people to care for me. Then what is mine? Is there anything of mine, but for my deeds? No Right, Just Allah and only that can save me. In the day of Judgement who will be with me supporting me or you? No one. Not even our parents. We will all be worried about our Nufs, our deeds, we will be judged alone. Then why keep attachment with this world. If its not our home in the 1st place. Remember our eternal goal is Jannah. That’s our real home. And it’s surely not easy reaching there, but the sacrifices you make if not believe in me believe in Allah it’s worth it!